I'm just checking in to give an update.
The good news, my health scare turned out to be due to nursing. After I finish nursing, they recommend that I get tested again to make sure that was in fact the cause of it. Phew...Really that is GREAT news and I am really thankful. Thinking about the alternative is scary.
The bad news, the work front wasn't so lucky. I got the results of the vote, and they will be selling our business. I most likely won't have a job in 30 days and that is upsetting. After 8 years of blood, sweat, and tears I have no choice but to move on. I am keeping my fingers crossed that I find something quick or that they keep me on until I do. I haven't been without a job since I graduated from highschool 20 years ago. This just isn't a good time, but I guess, when really is?!
In preparation, I have put the family on a no-frills budget. We are accounting for every dollar we spend. We are just a week in, and we already spent way more than we intended. It is unbelievable the cost of items when you are really paying attention. Heat, gas, and food are expenses that just keep creeping up. Much more than the rate of pay increases. And ones that you really can't live without. I wonder how most people survive even with a two household income.
Babygirl and littlesoldier boy are doing well. They are still growing like weeds and still make me proud every day. I am so lucky to have been given the privilege of being their mother. I thank God every day.
I'm trying to stay positive and hoping everything will work out...and if you truly knew me, and my worrisome nature, you would understand how difficult that really is for me...until next time - Love, Peace, and Happiness
Friday, February 22, 2013
Friday, February 1, 2013
Coming to Terms
Today wasn't one of my better days.
I think I am finally coming to terms with the fact that I will most likely lose my job.
It really hurts. I know it isn't personal, but you can't help but feel that way.
I have given everything I had for the past 8 years.
Blood.
Sweat.
And tears.
And I have no control over the outcome. It seems that sometimes it doesn't matter how hard you work, you aren't guarenteed anything...that's life.
I always said that I was going to go down with the ship unless the boat was taken from me...and well that is what is happening. Never in a million years did I think it would happen this way.
My fear is that I won't find another job. And if I am lucky to find one, it won't be anywhere in the pay range that I need to make in order to keep my house and support my family. When did it get so expensive to make a life? I guess in this state it always has been, I've just been lucky these past few years. And now my luck finally ran out. It really is a helpless feeling. I find myself wanting to cry all the time.
I don't even have a resume together. Truth be told, I don't even know where to begin. Since I have been in my current position for 8 years and had previously worked for the former GM for 6 years at another location, I didn't need one. But that is now on the top of my TO DO LIST.
I am holding on, hoping and praying that the transaction doesn't go through. But I think I am just fooling myself. Need to prepare myself for the inevitable.
And if that wasn't enough to worry about, I still have that other thing lingering - finding out about my health. If I only had the ability to have one of these things go my way - you know I am pulling for my health...would be nice if I can get both.
God please give me the strength to get through these next couple of weeks and handle what ever outcome there is.
I think I am finally coming to terms with the fact that I will most likely lose my job.
It really hurts. I know it isn't personal, but you can't help but feel that way.
I have given everything I had for the past 8 years.
Blood.
Sweat.
And tears.
And I have no control over the outcome. It seems that sometimes it doesn't matter how hard you work, you aren't guarenteed anything...that's life.
I always said that I was going to go down with the ship unless the boat was taken from me...and well that is what is happening. Never in a million years did I think it would happen this way.
My fear is that I won't find another job. And if I am lucky to find one, it won't be anywhere in the pay range that I need to make in order to keep my house and support my family. When did it get so expensive to make a life? I guess in this state it always has been, I've just been lucky these past few years. And now my luck finally ran out. It really is a helpless feeling. I find myself wanting to cry all the time.
I don't even have a resume together. Truth be told, I don't even know where to begin. Since I have been in my current position for 8 years and had previously worked for the former GM for 6 years at another location, I didn't need one. But that is now on the top of my TO DO LIST.
I am holding on, hoping and praying that the transaction doesn't go through. But I think I am just fooling myself. Need to prepare myself for the inevitable.
And if that wasn't enough to worry about, I still have that other thing lingering - finding out about my health. If I only had the ability to have one of these things go my way - you know I am pulling for my health...would be nice if I can get both.
God please give me the strength to get through these next couple of weeks and handle what ever outcome there is.
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