There are good days and there are bad. Without the balance - life would be boring - no? Or maybe I tell myself that to make me feel better.
Yesterday wasn't a great day for my littlesoldierboy. He tried hard to make a team that he originally thought was a sure-in. Then all off a sudden 42 kids were vying for 28 spots. Not the best of odds when you are a freshman. He handled it like a man, so much better than his mother. I visibly was devastated for him. I hate when my kids hurt (even when they pretend that they don't). I am so proud of him and the way he handles himself. He WILL get them next time.
The uncertainity with my job continues. We are told that the closing will be done within the next 30 to 60 days. So I may very well be unemployed for the first time in my life in the next month or two. I'm told there is a chance that I may be hired by the new company, but they can't promise me anything. They also can't tell us if we are offered a position that it would be at or near the same salary we are currently making. I'm trying not to worry about and taking it one day at a time. Otherwise I would make myself crazy. In the meantime, my hubby is thinking about rejoining the workforce. He went on his first interview in over 10 years. He thinks he did well, and I am keeping my fingers crossed for him. He deserves something to go his way for once. It will also help take the pressure off of me.
Babygirl turned 14 months last week. She is still my little peanut. And I adore her every day. She and her brother are the reasons why we wake up every day. I can't remember what life was like before them, and I can't imagine my life without them. They truly make life worth living.
I'm just checking in to give an update.
The good news, my health scare turned out to be due to nursing. After I finish nursing, they recommend that I get tested again to make sure that was in fact the cause of it. Phew...Really that is GREAT news and I am really thankful. Thinking about the alternative is scary.
The bad news, the work front wasn't so lucky. I got the results of the vote, and they will be selling our business. I most likely won't have a job in 30 days and that is upsetting. After 8 years of blood, sweat, and tears I have no choice but to move on. I am keeping my fingers crossed that I find something quick or that they keep me on until I do. I haven't been without a job since I graduated from highschool 20 years ago. This just isn't a good time, but I guess, when really is?!
In preparation, I have put the family on a no-frills budget. We are accounting for every dollar we spend. We are just a week in, and we already spent way more than we intended. It is unbelievable the cost of items when you are really paying attention. Heat, gas, and food are expenses that just keep creeping up. Much more than the rate of pay increases. And ones that you really can't live without. I wonder how most people survive even with a two household income.
Babygirl and littlesoldier boy are doing well. They are still growing like weeds and still make me proud every day. I am so lucky to have been given the privilege of being their mother. I thank God every day.
I'm trying to stay positive and hoping everything will work out...and if you truly knew me, and my worrisome nature, you would understand how difficult that really is for me...until next time - Love, Peace, and Happiness
Today wasn't one of my better days.
I think I am finally coming to terms with the fact that I will most likely lose my job.
It really hurts. I know it isn't personal, but you can't help but feel that way.
I have given everything I had for the past 8 years.
Blood.
Sweat.
And tears.
And I have no control over the outcome. It seems that sometimes it doesn't matter how hard you work, you aren't guarenteed anything...that's life.
I always said that I was going to go down with the ship unless the boat was taken from me...and well that is what is happening. Never in a million years did I think it would happen this way.
My fear is that I won't find another job. And if I am lucky to find one, it won't be anywhere in the pay range that I need to make in order to keep my house and support my family. When did it get so expensive to make a life? I guess in this state it always has been, I've just been lucky these past few years. And now my luck finally ran out. It really is a helpless feeling. I find myself wanting to cry all the time.
I don't even have a resume together. Truth be told, I don't even know where to begin. Since I have been in my current position for 8 years and had previously worked for the former GM for 6 years at another location, I didn't need one. But that is now on the top of my TO DO LIST.
I am holding on, hoping and praying that the transaction doesn't go through. But I think I am just fooling myself. Need to prepare myself for the inevitable.
And if that wasn't enough to worry about, I still have that other thing lingering - finding out about my health. If I only had the ability to have one of these things go my way - you know I am pulling for my health...would be nice if I can get both.
God please give me the strength to get through these next couple of weeks and handle what ever outcome there is.
It has been while since I lasted posted.
I know, I know I said that I would post daily but that turned out to be a huge challenge. It didn't help that I was having issues with the site, but truth be told, I have been overwhelmed lately.
With work.
With health.
With life.
It has been a struggle to say the least. I am trying to not be my normal worry wart self. But it is hard. I am hoping for the best. Fingers crossed.
In two weeks I should know which direction work is going to go in and if I need to get my resume out there. Let's hope not.
I've also been dealing with possible health issues. In the beginning of January I found a lump. I've gone to the doctor, had an ultrasound, and am awaiting the results with a specialist next week. Here's to hoping it is nothing.
Through it all, it is my kids that keep me going.
And look what babygirl is doing...it is starting already =)
Babygirl turned one today.
We celebrated with chocolate for breakfast. Doesn't everybody?!
And a cupcake for dessert following dinner.
A year has passed...and I can't believe how quickly it has (although 14 years have passed since her brother was born and that seemed to go quicker)...I look forward to many, many more birthdays spent with my babygirl.
***For some reason I can't get the pictures uploaded onto the blog =(
Corona Light anyone?! Yes, please.
Today was my employee party. I really wanted to bring my daughter with me so that 1. my staff could see how quickly she is growing and 2. my hubby could come and be my designated driver. The higher ups had sent an e-mail out that the party was for the employee and a guest. Being that I am part of the management team, I thought I needed to set an example. Bad decision. Not only were there a bunch of people who brought their kids but apparently some of the staff didn't know the definition of 'a guest' and brought the whole family (and not just the immediate). I was so livid. And I live too far to go and pick them up =(...oh well, next year - she is so coming with me! And littlesoldierboy too if I can talk him into it ;)
A year ago today I went to bed and didn't get much sleep. At 2am my water broke and 12 hours later babygirl entered this world. And I haven't had a full night's rest since, but the gift has been so worth it.
Here is a year in review of babygirl's first year in pictures:
2012 was a great year in our household.
Babygirl arrived three days in and was a ray of sunshine from her first moment. She still is a little peanut nearly a year later. She is so strong and smart that she amazes me every day.
Littlesoldierboy graduated from grade school and got accepted into the welding program in high school. He attended his first dance - with a date and although I cried a little, I was happy for him to be experiencing new events in his life. He is growing into a young man that any girl would be lucky to have in the future - way future.
During the year we made an effort to spend more quality time together. In the summer we visited the beach. In the fall we went apple and pumpkin picking. And just as the winter was approaching, we took two family vacations. Florida was fun but Montego Bay felt more like a vacation. Sun, beach, and frozen cocktails. My kind of vacation.
We also had Storm Sandy hit our state and force us to be without power for 8 days. Although this wasn't a highlight of the year, it did force us to spend quality family time without technology. Always a silver lining.
If I had to do a high and low of the year it would be: High - babygirl's birth; Low - learning that I may be losing my job in early spring. The news was shared wiht us two weeks before Christmas. Needless to say, it has been an emotional last couple of weeks. I am hoping there is a possibility that I won't lose it, but if I do, I'm at least hoping I find something quick that will allow me to provide for my family. Someone here is keeping her fingers crossed.
As I say goodbye to 2012, I am grateful for the many blessings I have. I treasure all the memories we have made, obstacles we have overcome, and time we have shared. It truly was a year of laughter, tears, and above all - love.
Hello 2013. You have a lot to live up to. We want more laughs than tears, move love than sorrow, and more time spent together.
Like every year, my resolutions include eating healthier, exercising, and spending more quality time with my family. Time is so precious and I don't want to waste any of it.
This year I am also going to try and take the 365 day challenge. 365 days of pics and posts to document our life, one day at a time.
